Simmering

not feeling quite so much like a fish out of water these days. still missing my MF, but hanging in there. the sky is so blue today it makes your eyes hurt. Fall is a tuff time...more transitions. Its good to be back with colleauges, but I am still struggling with a feeling of disconnect...I want so much to get on my motorcycle and go...just head off to the countryside; with no particular place in mind..just a place and space to let all my thoughts and feelings simmer. Have you ever felt like a song...."words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup"...sometimes thats all I can hear. Be at peace.

well, ive landed for now...back at seminary. expected to be in Africa by now, but like the song says, "You can make a perfect plan and see it all, unravel". Ive been in that place before...you think I would learn not to make plans, not to expect that things will work out the way I thought they would. rather, I should expect the unexpected, change is the only constant, surprise its favorite haunt. better get to unpacking...again. I grow weary of moving...but alas, such is the life of a gypsy!